Dear Future Version of Me, Well hello Mhairi, hope you are well! At the moment you are sitting in bed bored, you took a day or 2 off from work coz you were, sick, genuinly sick may i add! just vomit and diarorea but enough to warrant a sick day. Nicola is ur wonderfully annoying boss, she has announced she is preggers so is extra moody. Andrea is a good friend. Rog is still working on L10 with me, we get on well most of the time but when we fight, we fight. A lot of the time i want to go and live in Scotland but i know then that i will pince for my friends if i do, altho in sayin that i still have the horrors from Sat, its wed ffs! i made a right dick of myself and have vowed to curb my drinkin and never get hammered anymore, just tipsy. i cant handle it and obv still have issues that only arise when a drunken bum!! Im goin to see Jessica on sun for 1 whole week, i cannot wait, she loves me loads and i cannot get enough of her, she is the best thing ever. She calls me Aunty Mawayyyyy, has a very strong mind and knows what she wants and when she wants it! She has me wrapped round her wee finger and then some. She loves Rog too and calls him dodder! She sings songs all the time, she sings Happy Birthday a lot, she really enjoys nursery and gets v excited bout gooin there. She is well into makka pakka the now and still loves mickey and minnie, she shouts mouse everytime she sees them. she loves her dinner and thinks everytime she sees a cafe she should be eating there, she shouts highchair when she passes one. she came to get me at PIK last time i was over with her mum and gran and done it there. she ran over to me and was all excited to see me but she still looked over my shoulder expecting rog!! When i go over she makes me take off my jacket and scarf and shoes and i have to sit with her on her wee table and we have lunch, course i dont mind. she goes to the fridge and helps herself to whatever she fancies, usually a pudding, yoghurts are her fav, whatever she takes or gets she gets one for me too coz im her best pal, i taught her to say that too, we do high 5s all the time and she loves it when i do 5 high, 5 low , too slow!! she will always say, again again before u have even finished! She knows where morrisons is coz her mother is never out of it and when she is in she always likes to go on the car, she remembers it even before she gets in! she knows where her grannies house is when she passes too. Well when i get this i hope to be a better grade than AO, be on a lot more than £16312pa and be earning more than £1080 per month!! id like to own my own home with rog and maybe even be thinkin about kids, i hope we get on a lot better now than what we did when i wrote this, at present he is sleepin in the spare room, not so good eh! we are goin out on sat, he is treatin me for a wee change, somethin he isnt so good at but hopefully that will change soon. he has looked after me really well the past few days altho he still does have a bloody temper on him and he cant just speak to you like anormla human being!! no one is perfect tho, specially not me! we just got small backpay so im goin to go shoppin for somethin for jessica for her easter and of course for Karens bday. id like to send this 10 years in the future but im too scared in case it doesnt work then, so ill send it for 5. 5 years ago i was living in scumnock, id already kissed rog :O and was defo considerin movin away from there. i am wantin to move again but to johnstone this time and with rog, i just hope he'll come. i love him with all my heart, he just has to share it with Jessica these days. maz xx (written Wed Mar 31, 2010 , to be delivered Tue Mar 31, 2015 )